Monday, 28 September 2009

Oh, blogger, i prefer you to tumblr

but this intrigued me

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people:
10. i wish you wouldn't be so distant because i miss you so very much
9. sometimes i think you saved my life. you seem to get me completely, and i just wish you were happier
8. you can be so screamingly selfish, and you need to stop treating them like that, but i can't ever seem to hold it against you
7. it makes me afraid that i might not be able to keep you forever
6. i'm sorry for the way things are, and i admit it's my fault. i'm trying to rectify things
5. i'm not afraid of all the demons you've got
4. i don't really know you, but i pretty much wish i was you
3. i wish you'd learn to listen to me
2. despite the fact stuff is sometimes awkward, i think we might end up being best friends
1. i feel responsible for how you've turned out. but i like that deep down, you're still you

Nine things about myself:
9. i love my freckles, moles and scars 8. i'm fighting against my own sense of apathy, jealousy and anxiety 7. i wish i was smaller and less angular, amongst other things 6. fifteen minutes into (500) days of summer i knew it was going to be my favourite film 5. i'm pretty sure that tea runs in my veins instead of blood 4. i'm a sucker for anything that comes in a quirky bottle or tin 3. i want to be speak five different languages before twenty five. i'm on two so far 2. i often wake up with advert jingles in my head 1. i have thousands of dreams of who i'd like to be but i can never seem to pin down one road to follow. i always realise things too late.

Eight ways to win my heart in relationships:
8. buy me freesias or gerberas 7. be elusive but not rude, sweet but not saccharine 6.tell me your secrets and listen to mine 5. be your own person, question things, don't buy into a specific 'scene.' be generally intelligent 4. banter with me 3. be passionate about something 2. get on with my family 1. hold my hand in the street

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
7. i'm hungry 6. i wish they were here 5. the rose print skirt from urban outfitters 4. i want to change things 3. lyrics 2. why do i never feel like i quite belong 1. i need a cup of tea

Six things I do before I fall asleep:
6. pray 5. set my hello kitty alarm clock 4. pee 3. make a cup of tea 2. read 1. wriggle til i'm comfortable

Five people who mean a lot:
any five people that can make me laugh and get me.

Four things you’re wearing right now:
4. my brand new hoody (i so love jesse lacey) 3. floral print leggings 2. white crocheted top (my version of pajamas) 1. heart detailed silver ring

Three songs that you listen to often:
3. anthems for a seventeen year old girl 2.pachuca sunrise 1. all babes are wolves

Two things you want to do before you die:
2. visit every continent 1. understand myself

One confession:
1. i'm afraid of the dark

Tuesday, 22 September 2009

this genuinely makes me so happy

Friday, 18 September 2009

Nothing's going to touch you in these golden years

So, last night two of my very best friends in the world left.
For two totally distinct, diverse and most significantly, different cities.
And as much as I'm sure their going will be this exciting and incredible adventure for them, its pretty hard to see the benefits of that when its half one in the morning and you have this sobbing mess of a girl wrapped up in a very 'Switchblade Sisters' group hug, that most probably smells slightly of cider, because she can't quite bare to say goodbye.
Now's probably not the right time to rationally process and deal with all these feelings fluttering under my ribcage, because I've just worked a twelve hour shift, its now very, very late and my feet won't stop aching. But I've never really been one for logical cognitive thought processes.
I'm just horribly sad. And I really don't think there's anything wrong with that, because it's gruelling getting on board with the fact that the people I love vast, indefinite amounts will be scattered across the country, and not merely a quick bus ride away from me. But it's not a heavy oppressive kind of sad, its more nostalgic and a little nervous.

Playlist for 20.09.09
♥ David Bowie -Golden Years
♥ Alphaville - Forever Young
♥ Green Day - Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)
♥ Frank Turner - You Are My Sunshine
♥ Metric -Gimme Sympathy
♥ Brand New - Soco Amaretto Lime

Wednesday, 16 September 2009

A moment, a love, a dream aloud

a kiss, a cry, our rights, our wrongs
There is no possible way I could have loved that film anymore.

Saturday, 12 September 2009

Get me out of this place
because I'm stuck in a rut and can't stomach the taste.
My lungs are filling up with dust
I feel broken and bruised; there's no one left to trust.

Friday, 11 September 2009

HOW adorable is this jacket? Tres parisian chique ♥
It looks what you'd wear whilst sitting in a café in Monmartre, sipping a freshly percolated coffee reading something by Emile Zola (my advice? don't start with Nana. ease into his downbeat realism with uber romantic Le Rêve) with Regina Spektor on your trusty ipod.
I get all choked up with excitement when trying to talk about my impending trip to the city of love, I'm verging on starting a mental countdown.
If you've got a free minute on, check out the track 'trying my best to love you' from Jenny Lewis's record Acid Tongue. As if she needed to prove how incredible she is after years in Rilo Kiley, she collaborates with She & Him and Elvis Costello. A-freaking-mazing.

Thursday, 10 September 2009

September is coming soon,
my heart is pining for the moon

Wednesday, 9 September 2009

Certainly Not The Average Girl

If I were a Sarra Manning heroine (like my all time favourites Edie Wheeler or Molly Montgomery) this'd be my second novel.
Please don't judge me on the enormous pretentiousness of comparing myself to a fictional character, although I relate seamlessly to every girl she writes about, all I meant was that this blog is about new beginnings. But, I figured a little introduction does no harm.

♥ Live music is my absolute passion.
♥ I'm not a massive fan of alcohopops, I prefer to drink Coronas or Southern Comfort and lemonade, though I'll have to change them when winter properly kicks in. I have specific seasons for everything.
♥ Zooey Deschanel is my ultimate girl crush, although Hayley Williams and Kristen Stewart come in a close second.
♥ Edinburgh is my favourite city in the UK, but I'm incredibly partial to the sunny South East
♥ Freesias are the most beautiful flowers in the world
♥ My guilty pleasures in life are watching late night re-runs of Gossip Girl and Gilmore Girls whilst tucked up in my bed, with an enormous cup of tea. Oh, and big bags of skittles.
♥ I'm petrified of open water and being trapped in a rut for the rest of my life.
♥ I strongly believe in God, love and the healing power of a hot soak with L'Occitaine Green Tea bubble bath.
♥ Despite the impression this blog'll probably give off, I adore other people and I'm pretty hard on myself. My family are wonderful in their chaos, my friends are as close to my heart as the tendons, my boyfriend often leaves me awestruck and people I hardly know can so easily fascinate me and make my day.
♥ is how my world would look.

So, like the Velvet Underground so aptly said, not the average girl.